After my last meet, I said I was going to survive the holiday season and then I’d start trying to move down a weight class. It’s been a month since I started working on that goal, and I thought I’d do an update.
My diet has mostly been on track. I had 3 or 4 days where I went over my calorie limit but I think that’s pretty on par for trying to balance a social life. Right now I feel like I am in a place where I have the wheels on my diet and I’m driving the car straight. It’s reassuring that I’ve got my diet under control, but I’ve still been feeling frustrated because at the same time I seem to have zero control over the number on my scale.
I felt like I had come to a standstill because I’ve been losing the same 10lbs over and over since September. I was ready for them to be gone! Then this morning I woke up and weighed in at my lightest weight ever. I mean, I’m lighter now than I was after artificially getting my weight down through waterloading. I was so happy that I even did a little dance to celebrate – that burns calories, right?
There are a few things that I’ve become conscious of over the past few weeks: first, keeping track of my weight loss has been instrumental in staying on track. It is reassuring to see the decreasing trend, when the number on the scale seems a little too high on any given morning. The fact of the matter is that I have lost weight this month and it’s happening at the rate I need to reach 63 kg by the end of March. All I need to do is stay on track. It’s that simple.
Second, I’ve had a few people comment in the past couple of weeks that I look like I’ve lost weight. Initially, I was annoyed with these comments. It doesn’t matter if I look like I’m 63 kg if that’s the category I want to compete in, and as much as these remarks were well intentioned they only seemed to remind me that the scale is barely moving. At the same time, I need to accept that visual changes are an indication that I’m doing something right, and if I give it enough time the scale will reflect fat loss. All I need to do is stay on track. It’s that simple.
Just to reassure myself, I decided to take some progress pictures. It’s been a while since I’ve done this and I want to make sure that I can see what everyone else is seeing. Plus, if lifting is supposed to be the best way to tone and sculpt women’s bodies then I should still seem some progress even if my weight has only fluctuated by 10 lbs, right?
I am annoyed that I’ve moved a couple of times in the past few years because I haven’t kept a consistent angle for my progress shots. Oh, and I’m kind of in shock. I keep telling people that I’m still rocking the power belly – but it’s shrinking! My ass still has a mind of its own, but who am I to try and stop something that has its own orbit?
This might sound stupid but finally after nearly two years, I feel like I see a difference. Real change takes time, but all doing all those little things day in and day out does add up. This year I’m going to reach 132lbs, which will be 100lbs lost. All I need to do is stay on track. It’s that simple.